catching up

The thing about taking a vacay when practically everyone else is going back to school and getting their serious post-summer regimen on at work and such is that you miss some things. So today, I just want to catch up on some stuff that’s been happening.

Last night, the preposterous Emmys with their endless commercials reminded me of why I’ve never owned a TV. How can there be that many commercials now? I don’t remember commercials being anywhere near that bad back in the day. A few of my boys and shows were nominated, so I had to make a TV viewing exception and take control of SP’s big screen. I should have known better. Why oh why do I always hope things will be different? Look, I have much respect for 30 Rock and Tina Fey. I am a fan. Smart, hilarious, sharp, awesome on so many levels – all that. But Steve Carell, Jemaine Clement, Rainn Wilson, The Office, and Flight of the Conchords were all nominated, and none of them won? Really? Something is not right with that picture. Steve Carell is so overdue for an Emmy I cannot even tell you. And no win for Rainn? Excuse me, but which character is more brilliant than Dwight Schrute? They were robbed! At least Jon Stewart got the attention he deserves. Not much of a silver lining, though.

Speaking of nominees who were robbed, I was stoked to come home to a pile of mail with David Letterman on the cover of New York magazine. My love for Dave is all sparkly rainbows and puffy hearts. I was so obsessed with Late Night in junior high that I used to tape it and watch it after school, recording all of his Top Ten lists in a special notebook. Just one more item I wish I hadn’t thrown away before I left for college.

Tomorrow is the autumnal equinox. I find this impossible to believe. I know I’m always like, Wait, it’s July? No way, I’m still on April! But this is serious. My time perception issue is getting worse. It feels like June to me. I don’t know how to fix my problem, or even if I should classify this as an official problem. Maybe it just means I’m enjoying life (which, within the realm of my entire life, is a relatively new thing). Well. On a related note, it’s Climate Week!

Most importantly, another September 11 has passed. My friend Stephen usually visits so we can walk to Ground Zero and take part in certain rituals. Our annual walk to Ground Zero symbolizes the walk to the Twin Towers we, thankfully, never took in 2001 as planned. This is a day I will never forget. Not only because our lives were saved, not only because the magic of the Towers drew me to New York, but because I live close to where they stood. I rebuild them behind my eyes every day. And every day, I thank the Universe that I am still here. I’ll leave you with this photo of us from last year. To me, it looks like hope.

Susane Colasanti and Stephen Venters on September 11, 2008

8 thoughts on “catching up

  1. I definately agree with you about the whole office thing. I hate it when the people who deserve the awards don’t win! I also agree with you about it already being autumn! Part of me wants to savor the rest of summer and keep wearing my flip flops, but the other part wants me to wear my boots and get ready for some apple cider.

  2. I’m trying to remember your Twin Towers story… why were you supposed to go there the very day of 911? Were you visiting or already living in NYC? That’s an amazing tale in any case, and I love that you continue the ritual in thanks and gratitude. You are definitely one of those ‘alive’ people who has made the most of their time here, and I’m so glad that you’re enjoying life more. I hear that being in your 30’s often helps, even though everybody supposedly wants to be in their 20’s. Thirties are much more even-keel on the whole. I really hope that’s true!

    • It’s totally true! By the time you reach your 30s, you’ve (hopefully) been through enough experiences to have a much better idea about who you are and where you’re going. Perspective changes after your 20s. Things that used to bother me don’t as much. I’ve worked out a lot of issues. I think it’s just a matter of time – time heals, so as distance from our teen years increases, so does our amount of collective happiness 😉
      As for 9.11, I had already been living in NYC for 5 years. I never told my whole story here…I don’t think I deserve to tell it since so many people died and so many people lost those who were close to them. My story is nothing compared to theirs. But I will say that we had plans to go to the top of one tower that afternoon and stay until sunset. Of course after living here for years and adoring those towers, that’s the one day I picked to finally go to the top. If the attacks had happened later in the day…this is why I feel a huge obligation to live my life fully, for those who no longer have that option.

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